I figure myself to come back to the office. My first day should be happy of holiday excitement and new year resolution. I step to 3rd floor lightly. As I enter the door, the cold morning air-con chill wrap me but I am so ready to say: Happy New Year!
The lady on the reception might cheers with happiness. The other ladies might just coldly smile un-naturally while mumbling a greeting back. Then I felt my spirit down to zero, again. They were all not interested, and will not interested. Sigh.
Do you ever think that it is a situation I can mend? I still think I will not able to do anything to it. As long as they live and as I live, the situation will be the same. No matter how cheers I am there, or how nice I treat them, I know they will be the same.
I know there are a lot of self-help book that will say the situation is to be change, start by me. I’ve been there for this last of two years. I admit of my ignorance that made the situation worse, still I know there are things that I can not change in this small world.
The only thing I could do is just hang on and keep going until a miracle happen…. maybe. To keep myself happy and completely autistic to just ignore their underestimating attitude to me.
Chance and miracle?