The lady handed a small white envelope to Hiras. My heart was beating faster. I don’t like what I see. I know it must contains money. When Hiras told me the amount, I do felt uneasy. I understand the lady’s feeling, and could accept it well. But, still something inside my head pounding.
For these seven years I serve as a pastor-wife, I am very very sensitive about get gift in form of money. As much as I am being sensitive about debt.
I was grown up with these phrases ~~overheard from church member conversation~~:
– the pastor is material man, always ask for money when doing home-visit, and
– we gave a lot of money to the pastor, he has to follow our instruction!
I don’t want any of church member I serve ever think that the pastor is a material man. I do carefully see and follow Hiras preaching to be able to find anything may be misunderstand as a tendency to be material. I also enjoy our freedom of beeing non-party. Nobody would ever force us to follow his/her instruction in the church as a reward for being so generous to us.
I want to stay that way, everytime and forever.
Should anyone desired to show their appreciation to us, I wish ~~preferly~~ to be given something very simple. A nice word or a thank you. That is means more than money to me. Really. For these seven years, I heard more of complain and critiques than nice words.
Anyway, thank you for the precious gift.